JMikePatt

Yesterday started as a normal day. Then the triggers happened like dominoes falling. These are the kinds of triggers that used to send me straight to the darkest part of the darkness. But my view is different now. Clearer. When you spend enough time in the dark, the shadows become visible. Where some might find fear, I hold on to my faith. The view may never be the same, but the vision is clear. It all depends on interpretation and perception. People will always tell you what you are supposed to do based on their own beliefs. But I know what I am supposed to do based on my faith. This is not unfamiliar territory anymore. The more I navigate it, the better I get at doing what I am meant to do. You're supposed to is a want. Mine is a need. A want is what you see. A need is unseen. The last two years have not been an ending. They have been building toward the beginning of an awakening, breaking free from chains that have held me back since I was seven years old. And that awakening is ...

I was having a chat with this old guy in his eighties the other day. We were watching a bunch of folks looking over at a construction site. He looked over at them and shook his head and said, "Those women ain't gonna do much work in them dresses they got on. That there is DEI at its best." I looked right at him and said, "If they got the skill for the job, then why not?" He did not like that one bit. He said, "Well, women going out to work is what ruined the whole family." So I looked him in the eye and said, "Controlling men do the exact same thing." Silence. Complete crickets. He sure changed the subject real fast after that. If we keep holding onto old ways of thinking just because that is how it used to be, how are we ever gonna build a better future for anyone?

A narcissist cares about you when you care about them. Read that again. When you first hear those words, they might sound like a simple description of a relationship. But when you let them sit, the illusion shatters. It doesn't say they care about you. It says they care when you care about them. That kind of "care" isn't affection; it’s a transaction. It’s a reflection. It’s an appetite for validation that leaves you empty the moment you stop pouring into a vessel that has no bottom. Lately, I’ve been dealing with my demons. Both the external demons from my past and the inner demons within myself. Because if I am being honest with the mirror, I have been on both sides of the fence. It is easy to point at the external demons, the people who used us, the conditional warmth, the transactional relationships, and the scars left behind by those who only valued what we provided. Recognizing those external forces is necessary for survival. It helps us understand why we built ...

I’ve been sitting here thinking about the world and how it’s running right now, and honestly, it ain’t hard to see what’s going on. You don't need a fancy degree or a big stack of books to figure it out. You just have to open your eyes and watch. The whole thing is rigged, top to bottom. Look at politicians. We call them leaders, but they’re just puppets. Plain and simple. And the folks running around blindly sticking up for their "party"? They're just pawns on the board, fighting each other while the guys at the top laugh all the way to the bank. Politics ain't about public service anymore. It’s just a legal, slick way for people who know how to bullshit to get rich without ever doing a day of real, hard work. And who’s pulling the strings? The corporations. They got all the money, so they lobby the puppets to get whatever laws they want passed. Then they turn around and feed the pawns just enough shiny junk to keep them happy and quiet. Meanwhile, the stuff that...

 

Look at what's on your screen right now. Everything is political. Every post, every thing you buy, every headline. It’s all being turned into a fight. Why? Because that’s how politicians make their money. The whole game is built on keeping us mad. They use race and identity like bait on a hook, throwing it out there to trigger people’s feelings so nobody stops to use plain old logic. They don't want us thinking for ourselves. They want us fired up, because angry people click, angry people argue, and angry people send them cash. The wizards running the show just moved from the industrial era to the digital era. It’s just a changing of the guard, but the trick is still the same. They turned red and blue into two sports teams, tricking us into thinking our own neighbors are the enemy just because they wear a different color. I saw an image a while back that got me thinking. It showed a map of the US that was all blue, and one that was all red, and then right next to them was a map...

When one opens their mind and can see what others can't, the world becomes small when you find a way to connect with the universe. I had a connection with one who had passed on before my mother passed. When Mom passed, it was very difficult. I thought I was prepared, but there is no way to prepare—not for the emotional rollercoaster, but the mental and spiritual one. Those rollercoasters are not easy. Then there's the pain of what happens to family after a loved one has transitioned. Here's that choice again: Quit or drown? I had to choose survival, and drowning was the only way. This has been going on for a couple of years now, but every day feels like day one again. Now I see it starting all over again. I'm not sure what is coming, but I will say I'm going to protect the family no matter how bad it gets. Within a few days of Mom passing, this cat showed up at my parents' house. I see it as her. Mom enjoyed sitting on the porch watching the birds. So does the c...